I looked around. There is no one. There is no one as i looked for their presence. It is not a dark night. Neither the day is bright. It is gloomy. But the things are clear. But i still do not see anyone around. I felt alone. It did not frighten me. But it made me feel strange. I am not surprised. But i was thinking. It is a strange feeling. Though i am furious superficially, i am feeling a deep sense of movement underneath like that of a slow moving underwater current. I am not mad at others as i have no right. I am not cursing others except myself. I do not like this place. It is no where near where i wanted to be. Did i come all this long without noticing it? May be i am. It is said that no one can make you walk unless you let them. Then it is me who walked all the way. I do not like it. It is also said that it is a choice we make and we make the choice when we are presented with a chance. It is a choice that we make and wait preparing for the chance. In this sense it looks there is nothing like "it happened to me". It can only be like "i was preparing for it and waited for the chance". The choice making is not an option you can leave if you do not understand. It will switch automatically among all the choices that we have. If you do not pick 'yes', you automatically picked 'no'. It won't ask you. It won't tell you. But it will make special arrangements so that you can not misunderstand it. It looks rude but you were rude in applying the choice you made. Does the question why come now? i do not think so. why? i do not know.